So much has changed in the last 17 months. I gave birth, watched Jagger turn into a toddler, sold my gym which resulted in a massive identity crisis (Who am I now that I’m not a business owner?”), and discovered that I could be equally elated and depressed simultaneously. I had no idea that was possible. It’s an odd sensation.
I sold my gym so that I could be a better wife and mom. I was unable to give 100% of myself to both, which was unfair to everyone involved. I assumed that once I sold, I would just move on and become like one of those insanely crafty Pinterest mom’s. You know the ones I’m talking about. They dress fantastically, wear makeup daily, use cookie cutters to make their kids’ organic PB&J sandwiches into stars and dinosaurs, and run their homes like well oiled machines. The problem is that I’m the complete opposite of those organized, Type A, super crafty women. I dream in cartoons (this seriously happened last night!) and think in circles. I don’t like to shop or plan or think about tomorrow at all for that matter. I would just love to travel, play music, help people get healthy, and hang out with my little family. So, now I just need to figure out how to live the life I want.
Travel and Hanging Out With My Little Family. We bought a 2015 Georgetown Black Diamond so that we can see the country. I really love the simplicity of traveling by RV. (On a side note, if you ever go on a road trip, check out Roadside America for all the best attractions.). There’s the lack of stuff. You travel with what you need, and you learn that you really don’t need much. I love how when you’re on the road you see things you would never see when traveling by plane. Life is slower, more relaxed, and more adventurous. Plus, the quality time you get to spend with your family can’t be beat. With the RV, I have the traveling part and hanging out with my family part of my dream life checked off the list.
Music. God I miss playing music. Throughout my youth and into my late 20’s, writing songs and playing the piano and guitar filled my soul with joy. Everything changed when my mom passed away in ’08. I don’t know what it is, but I haven’t been able to write anything since then. I occasionally play my guitar and piano, but it’s only for a few minutes here and there when I’m alone, which is almost never. If anyone has any ideas on what I can do to get my mojo back in this arena, I’m all ears!
Helping People Get Healthy. This is where I’m trying to figure out what’s next. How can I help others while on the road or while at home with Jagger? I’ve been brainstorming, and I’m thinking I may start a separate blog that is solely focused on nutrition and wellness (I would keep this one to write about my adventures). I can do online one on one nutrition counseling and/or provide meal plans. I’m still brainstorming the logistics, but the more I think about it the more excited I get.
It’s crazy to think that I’m starting all over again in my late 30’s. But isn’t that what life is about? Growth. Change. Adventure. New beginnings. I can’t wait to see what our future holds and to find out what’s next!